LETTER FROM AN ABORTED CHILD

 

 To-be but couldn't-be Mother! 

do you know how it feels

To thrust a hot iron

into the heart of one

that's how much pain I feel

For you didn't just end my life

but also shattered my dreams.

Is it my Fate to end this way

Or there is no other way I could live

Perhaps I mistakenly got into you

I wanted the best life for us

to fulfill my dreams and I craved 

for a mother who would be my backbone

instead , you detached me from your bone

You whispered that minute

You can't wait to have me removed 

because I bring shame to you 

that a life without me is best

Mother, I found warmth in your womb

I cling to you because I love you

Even though you detest the signs of me

When God gave me the news

that I'm going into the world

I asked Him to reduce your pains

to make me as beautiful as you

and to bring comfort to our lives

You brought me so much aches

though you'll always be my mother

Mama, should I try again

Not fulfilled dream I've got on my neck

My motive isn't to bring pain 

If you don't want me still 

bring me to the world

Place me in a haven and flee 

I will find my way and I'll forgive you

TRIALS OF A VIRGIN

O' ye Lady

You're the beauty behind feminine

You're the fragrance beneath 

the soothing aura of a flower 

planted to beautify and modified.

You're looked upon with the eyes

that reads "She is daft".

Play not your body about like draft

for you have within you the craft.

You've been thrust by those 

who you trusted for they want

not your love but to thrust 

through, in between your legs.

You've been stuck between letting out

and keeping it safe but remember

this is your "one time pride";

A minute pleasure shouldn't take away

your forever treasure... 

You're facing trials emotionally,

but there is someone out there

who wants more than uprooting you out of your precious root.

He'll water you with love

affection and dedication. 

Oh Yea! You'll crave for it too

but how do your face your man

when the question is asked... 

'Whom did you lost it to?'

- Simplicity

LIFE OR FATE?

When will life give me

Those true things I deserve?

Or is this fate?

To keep wishing and not having

Why should good people suffer

For being one?

Why should they find peace?

Even when they Put others in pieces

Oh you are endowed

They say to me

What of those pains?

Stop wishing you are me!

Those things that rocked Me

May sink you..

I chose strength of it all

The strength to be hurt than hurt others

That strength to love than any other

 

Most times I smile out Of tears

Cos most of my fears

Is me not succeeding among my peers

Despite how life gave me pears

I couldn't find the bread

To eat in peace

Is this life or fate?

I wanted to be normal

Life tortured me,  making me unease

I bottled up so many fears

Just to survive

Some times I got What I want

I seem happy not knowing

It's just a flash

They seem to disappear in no time

I feel so unlucky

Which tend to keep the question

Hanging in my throat

Is this life or fate?

Lost in Myself

My true self is gone
I feel the real me disappeared
I lost my world to a mere world
I lost who I am and
Who I really wanna be
How do i get this back?
even when my words can't be reached.

I found myself and
in another second i lost it all
Have i really found who i am?
Am I the counterfeit of my real self?
where do i turn to?
Where is me?
I gotta find me.



 My life confusing
Heart torn apart
world crumbling
where do I go?
how do i find me again? cos
I'm lost

Lost! Lost! Lost!
Now on my kneels
ready to change
ready to start again
I feel alone & lost
Please hold me!
I lost Me.
 

THE DEVIL I MET

You were once it!
A devil...
You chased after me so hard
Saying how much you care
I believe none of your words
I just don't want to

You start a new day with me
So deep in your heart and you care
You made advances i declined
I said i don't want you
Yet you stood by me
Through thick and thin, you were there.












You never feel rejected
Even when i made it known
You care so much
Even when i care less
You chase my sorrows
Even when I never care

You said you love me
I told you to go
To leave me alone and vanish
Yet you waited
You understand my pains
You are the devil I met
The devil that turned angel over the night.

UNSHARED FEELINGS

 My heart beats more faster
I feel you within
Your love holding on to my heart
I feel so in to you
I feel life cheated us
Making us feel what we can't share
My tears spells grievance
Do you also feel me within?
even when I aint too near...

All through the night
I painfully shed tears
I love you and you do
Why can't we share this?
Circumstance of life not on our sides?
Now i believe the word
Not all feeling is sharable
I don't wanna imagine not having you
Cos i keep imagining that I'm yours.

I WANT YOU

We have been through thick & thin
You care not less for me
I could see the traces of  tears
You shed all night long
Smiling from a sad heart
Hiding your pains behind it (smile)
I see it on that face that wears smile
Even when the tears didn't drop

Could you for a second be happy
Lets forget we aint alone
Lets steal the moment to share this
If for the last time come hold me
Come say it to me that
"You aint gonna be too far"
How do i face your sadness
Your smile was the best
Even when it comes from a sad heart.

We came into our lives
so innocent
You can't stop telling how it hurt
to see I can't be yours
Even love could hurt
You whisper it every time
"I will always love you"
I feel bad right now
I feel I hurt a true soul
I feel I should go far away
I feel your tears, I don't deserve
I feel you should be free from this love bondage.

HEARTBROKEN

Sitting at the corner thinking
about those moments
Kissing and touching your soft skin
Chuckling to your words as i hear them
It feels bad to know you ain't there anymore
I feel so horrible deep inside
My heart is torn apart
My heart feels deeply
Heartbroken.

I lost my words
when I read those words
My blood suddenly became hot
My sight blurred
I knew it that moment that
I'm not gonna be fine
I lost my true self cos
my heart feels deeply
Heartbroken.
















You tear my world apart
Your face wears no smile
The night you stop by
to say the final bye
Please don't go my treasure
You're all i seek
I feel so deeply
Heartbroken

I don't want love anymore
I tried hard to forget you
but you keep appearing in my dreams
I have met my pillow
I've got sleepless Night
I've waited even though you never came
I'm just so
Heartbroken.

How would i love again?
Who am i gonna trust?
Can there be moments i will be happily in love?
My heart feels pain
I can't let go of my pasts
I keep holding
There is still something i feel
Yet I feel deeply
Heartbroken.

HARD TIMES

These are moments you feel the world tearing apart . You feel deeply heartbroken wishing you could disappear far away. 

Hard time is never the time to sit back worried but stand, face and beat it well. No matter how smooth or sweet life seem, there are days that bring dryness and pains. You feel it deep in you and find yourself searching for the not lost.  

At times, when life wants to take you ahead, you face challenges that ONLY determination could  overcome which pace up getting to the set goal. Life is all about temporality, whatever it offers you, as long as the river flows, you must not stop moving on.

Overcome that thought that you are destined to be in hardship, wipe off the thoughts of giving up. Life will shaken our soul, make us feel horrible and still brings us back to where we really belong. What story would you have to tell the world when u get there someday? 

Your dreams are achievable with a strong mindset. Never relent no matter what.

Keep the hope alive.

MY MOTHER

The Pillar I could hug
In time of need
The one that wipe my tears
Giving the hope that all will be well
She could go all day hungry
Just for us to eat, she is fine
A survival of the fittest
My Mother

The one that smile
Even when tears fills up
She whisper all will be well often
Just to hide her pains
Behind her smile is grievance
Behind her joy is defeated sorrow
The strongest woman i ever knew
My Mother














Nothing could be compare
To those horrible moments we had
through thick and thin you were there
making us know she will and always be there
You gave us life and the
reason to keep living
My Mother

Though it gives me sorrow
to see you struggle too hard
she has a man in her
she is a man in a woman
she is strong and powerful
strict and annoying
Even when I Wanted everything new
I still want my mother again and again.
My Mother

RAISED FROM THE ROCK

Having gone through different short comings in my educational pursuit, I joined the train of TASUED on 8th October, 2016, admitted to study Secretarial & Business Administration. Sailing through in school was a hard one though I left with a sole aim "Succeeding".

Fast-forward to be in class where we have different students from different background. There are 3 categories of students, The ones born with Silver Spoon could be seen in expensive wears and materials in vogue. The ones Raised from the Mud, whose determination to rise proves abortive, no matter how hard they try. Though I categorized myself as the one Raised from the Rock, who with full determination could succeed in a blink. 

Paying school fee and other administrative fees was never achieved in mere. Mother was only the pillar I could hold on to when I almost fall. She try so hard to make things work out fine which eventually did. Her words of encouragement kept me alive and hopeful when I thought of deferring my admission.

Fast-forward to the Matriculation Day, where i was nominated among the bonafide student of the prestige Institution. She couldn't wait to see me in my gown and i couldn't wait to swear an Oath of dedication and commitment towards my educational pursuit all through my days in school. 

Alas! I was matriculated!

FRIENDS OF FRIENDS

"Friendship does not only implies the outstretch of hand or the law of companionship, it is also the great feeling one has, realizing someone out there is ready to trust you in friendship".

Friends comes in different way through series of life, we meet or lose friends when you needed them most. Being in friendship has an interwoven circumstances.

   
Friends impact our world negatively, insignificantly and all sorts. They have this bad purpose on our life, they pretend like they are there to help. A friend that falls into this category flee when done dismantling your sets (pursuit). My adage says "Choose friends according to the kind of future you want".

Friends impact your world positively, they are this angel that are yet to earn their wings. They are ready to bring out the best in you. They act like family, they are there when you need them, ready to assist in times of need, ready to answer when you call for them, ready to lift you in times of downfall and comes along when you are alone. A friend like them, stays with you through thick and thin.

Now! take a second, think deep and choose the friend you want today, Is it the one that will ruin your future?or the one that will be with you through best and worst?

Choose your friend today!

 

Life!

I wasn't born with a silver spoon, I hail from the family where "Future" is almost everyday topic. Mother would always want the best for us. She made me to understand that, someday, Life would teach me lessons that would pace up my pursuits in life.

Yes! truly, I learnt and still learning. I thought I was unfortunate when Life showed itself, I was lost and in a state of dilemma, I almost gave up on life, until things changed rapidly and i sailed through alas!

When you're happy today, think of what tomorrow might bring, Life  could be disastrous yet it is better to keep striving, you could be left on the sand of time though.

Someday, you will achieve your goals only if you fight for one. No matter what Life might seems,  I'll say "Never give up"

 

Life can be , always know from every of your view that "life is all about Temporality" 

Never Give Up!

I feel pain,
pains life impacted,
It got to a point I gave up,
just then I realised that,
even when I stop striving,
Life continues and still existed.

I'll Never give up!

I live an enjoying life,
Life is sweet,
suddenly things changed,
I feel like screaming,
who am I to call?
who will be here to help?
I think I want to give up,
Oh Life why?
I'll Never Give up!

I have tried so hard,
I keep trying and I haven't stop,
yet life keep pestering cruelness,
It keep bringing tears,
I feel pain and sad.
but, I'll Never give up!











No words can describe the pains,
the pain I feel within,
I stop believing in myself,
may be life will help,
Life, please lead me through
I'll Never give up!

Life is all about Persistence.

Life is all about Efficiency. 

Life connotes endeavor.

Life is cruel.

Life is full of up.

Life has so many down; but

but, I'll Never give up!

Life teaches.

Life hurts.

Life loves.

Life cares.

Life helps.

Life shuns; but 

I'll Never give up!


L-Live
I-it
F-Freely &
E-Efficiently


NEVER GIVE UP!!!

A True Heart

Love is an affection  that connotes Pains! (to me)

The heart, it has this feeling that makes you do crazy things, the heart that makes two heart acts as one, the same heart that makes you Love someone so deep that it hurt to miss (him)  not even in a blink of an eye. Just that No true heart would go unhurt. The Heart that has this true feeling gets hurt the most, you try to pretend like everything is fine but No! the heart still lingers for the one it loves.

(Let me share a tip from experience)

Love Hurts

He was so cool, calm, outspoken and cute, in a nutshell, he has all the qualities she wanted. Luck was on her side, he walked up to her someday and express his love for her. They started their journey of love, she wanted no other man except him, first two months was a "Lovey Dovey". Suddenly things changed, he never wanted her anymore, he's done with her!.

That night she wept all through, having been betrayed by an unexpected being, she knew it, she felt it, it hurt, she cried. She controlled her heart never to love anymore thinking he would just walk up to her someday and said "It was all a Joke".

A true heart gets hurt because its Blind! It tries as much to keep within, so much love which keeps it alive. A true heart seem sorry even when not at fault. a TRUE HEART is the one that feel pains it can't share but bare alone, that is why it is hard to find ONE!

Love and Heart begot Pain. Whenever the heart feel a fresh love the brain seem busy, it think of no one than the Lovee. The body ejaculates to the presence of the Lovee. Love can be SWEET, it can be GREAT and it seems the BEST, but it's other side has just one word that kills the aforementioned "PAIN"

"Take control who you love or give your heart to, the heart is the pillar of the body, it destabilizes the body when its get hurt"

Stay Good!

Finding Oneself

Finding oneself is one of the greatest thing in life, knowing what you poses. Some has taken the wrong way doing what others did, not finding out who they really are. At times being in a peer group de-emphasizes that thought of finding who you really are, because you seem to be in peers where you do same thing other does, you don't have the privilege to make the world view you from the peak. 

"There are some people you will lose when finding yourself" 

Standing out of peers is an important aspect of finding oneself, do not follow other people's decision or desire, follow your heart, it is and will always be your greatest motivator. Reach out for a time to pen down who you are and what you have to impact the world as globe positively.

When finding yourself, let the heart be free of thoughts that makes you ridicule yourself or make you seem you cannot do it. There is nothing you cannot do if the determination is strong. Find who you really are, this seem good to the world. Utilize your talent, give the world what you have and let the world know what you have for them is a fantastic one.

When you finally find yourself, do not relent, see every effort no matter how huge as a tip of iceberg this make you not see yourself, this make you humble, this chase destruction and it make you a great one Indeed!

Live exemplary every aspect of your life, procrastinate not, do not the right thing at the wrong time, put every stage of your life in order. Be the BEST among the REST  and let REST point you out as the BEST

Find yourself today and do that in Time!. Time, is our greatest enemy, It awaits no one!

Stay Good!

Behind Every Cloud "(LODG)".

Life is all about risk, risk it!

The No 1 feature of "Life" is Obstacles & Achievement. These two can only be dealt with or ascertained respectively through Determination. Determination as they say determines ones destiny. Each step aim to take in life has obstacles to test their firmness, no good things is achieved in mere.

I see Life has a test of ones determination, Can you cope in a world full of miseries? Can you make 100 out of 50? No matter how frustrating it seems, push with full potential, strive for the best, look up to your dreams and relent not and in the end, "Victory" .

   

No effort is a waste

Always know that the harder the battle, the stronger the victory. Every rainfall has its potential, every sun shines with determination, no star comes without perfection. "Whatever it is life has to offer you, adapt to it, and make the best out of it", trying to achieve the "Goal" is not an easy task truly, but "Determination" push  ones potential to reaching the destination where the goal lies. 

Without Life, obstacle is a meaningless word, without Obstacle, determination cannot be found, without Determination, goal is not ascertained. 

Life is a good teacher, when you are hurt, the experience gathered determined your next move, likewise when you are favoured. Life will always give what it has to us, be it good or bad, we must survive. Every cloud up there, has a silver lining beneath. No effort in life is waste, awaits every struggle is Success.

 Did I touch a heart?

Stages of life

Growing up wouldn't be a qualm, since almost everything are being done or covered by our parents. This stage of life, you seem happy all the time, your heart is free of thoughts, all you do is sleep, wake, eat and play, we do enjoy this stage, just that one cannot really explain how wonderful it was growing up because as that stage of life, we are just too young to know or explain how we feel about something or anything.

Then things change when you start having peers around you, they impact you negatively or positively, at this stage of life, you feel being hurt but you just cannot figure out really what! you forgive and forget so quick, you move on with the one that hurt you after pleading for being wrong. This stage of life you know it, you feel it but you just don't understand it.

Fast forward to when you know well and how it feels to be human... Yes! You enjoy life more, you meet new friends and new thoughts flash through, you become more worried, sometimes you feel bad or heartbroken. I'll say this stage is the most delicate one to pass through, it easy to succeed here and as well easy to fail! This stage is like a stepping stone to one's destiny. During this stage, you choose who to be with and who not to, you decide well, how your future would be and the kind of life you want..


Isn't it good to have a good plan about one's future? As one of my quotes do say "Don't joke with any stage of your life, the step you took long time ago can be your stepping stone forever"

Choose a Good Life today!!

The Thought of being an Inspirational Blogger

That thought that comes to one that you wanna start inspiring others, the same thought that make you see your words as a light to brighten up the life people around you and the world as a globe. One of the best thing I love doing is inspiring others, touching people with my soft words. Indeed Life can been cruel at times, but the fact that IT IS A MUST! we survive and dwell in it is  the reason we need to strive hard to conquer life issues. I want to say, that whatever life has to offer, adapt to it and make sure you succeed because you don't have any reason for not achieving that goal you have been chasing. 

Trying to achieve goals is not easy truly, it takes strong determination. I'll say that we live in a world where those that lives in Luxury always have in a story to tell. There is no shortcut to success, we must strive for one, and as the says do goes, "Thousands of mile begins with a step".

I hope this little says from me touch a heart!!