Lost in Myself

My true self is gone
I feel the real me disappeared
I lost my world to a mere world
I lost who I am and
Who I really wanna be
How do i get this back?
even when my words can't be reached.

I found myself and
in another second i lost it all
Have i really found who i am?
Am I the counterfeit of my real self?
where do i turn to?
Where is me?
I gotta find me.



 My life confusing
Heart torn apart
world crumbling
where do I go?
how do i find me again? cos
I'm lost

Lost! Lost! Lost!
Now on my kneels
ready to change
ready to start again
I feel alone & lost
Please hold me!
I lost Me.
 

THE DEVIL I MET

You were once it!
A devil...
You chased after me so hard
Saying how much you care
I believe none of your words
I just don't want to

You start a new day with me
So deep in your heart and you care
You made advances i declined
I said i don't want you
Yet you stood by me
Through thick and thin, you were there.












You never feel rejected
Even when i made it known
You care so much
Even when i care less
You chase my sorrows
Even when I never care

You said you love me
I told you to go
To leave me alone and vanish
Yet you waited
You understand my pains
You are the devil I met
The devil that turned angel over the night.

UNSHARED FEELINGS

 My heart beats more faster
I feel you within
Your love holding on to my heart
I feel so in to you
I feel life cheated us
Making us feel what we can't share
My tears spells grievance
Do you also feel me within?
even when I aint too near...

All through the night
I painfully shed tears
I love you and you do
Why can't we share this?
Circumstance of life not on our sides?
Now i believe the word
Not all feeling is sharable
I don't wanna imagine not having you
Cos i keep imagining that I'm yours.

I WANT YOU

We have been through thick & thin
You care not less for me
I could see the traces of  tears
You shed all night long
Smiling from a sad heart
Hiding your pains behind it (smile)
I see it on that face that wears smile
Even when the tears didn't drop

Could you for a second be happy
Lets forget we aint alone
Lets steal the moment to share this
If for the last time come hold me
Come say it to me that
"You aint gonna be too far"
How do i face your sadness
Your smile was the best
Even when it comes from a sad heart.

We came into our lives
so innocent
You can't stop telling how it hurt
to see I can't be yours
Even love could hurt
You whisper it every time
"I will always love you"
I feel bad right now
I feel I hurt a true soul
I feel I should go far away
I feel your tears, I don't deserve
I feel you should be free from this love bondage.

HEARTBROKEN

Sitting at the corner thinking
about those moments
Kissing and touching your soft skin
Chuckling to your words as i hear them
It feels bad to know you ain't there anymore
I feel so horrible deep inside
My heart is torn apart
My heart feels deeply
Heartbroken.

I lost my words
when I read those words
My blood suddenly became hot
My sight blurred
I knew it that moment that
I'm not gonna be fine
I lost my true self cos
my heart feels deeply
Heartbroken.
















You tear my world apart
Your face wears no smile
The night you stop by
to say the final bye
Please don't go my treasure
You're all i seek
I feel so deeply
Heartbroken

I don't want love anymore
I tried hard to forget you
but you keep appearing in my dreams
I have met my pillow
I've got sleepless Night
I've waited even though you never came
I'm just so
Heartbroken.

How would i love again?
Who am i gonna trust?
Can there be moments i will be happily in love?
My heart feels pain
I can't let go of my pasts
I keep holding
There is still something i feel
Yet I feel deeply
Heartbroken.

HARD TIMES

These are moments you feel the world tearing apart . You feel deeply heartbroken wishing you could disappear far away. 

Hard time is never the time to sit back worried but stand, face and beat it well. No matter how smooth or sweet life seem, there are days that bring dryness and pains. You feel it deep in you and find yourself searching for the not lost.  

At times, when life wants to take you ahead, you face challenges that ONLY determination could  overcome which pace up getting to the set goal. Life is all about temporality, whatever it offers you, as long as the river flows, you must not stop moving on.

Overcome that thought that you are destined to be in hardship, wipe off the thoughts of giving up. Life will shaken our soul, make us feel horrible and still brings us back to where we really belong. What story would you have to tell the world when u get there someday? 

Your dreams are achievable with a strong mindset. Never relent no matter what.

Keep the hope alive.

MY MOTHER

The Pillar I could hug
In time of need
The one that wipe my tears
Giving the hope that all will be well
She could go all day hungry
Just for us to eat, she is fine
A survival of the fittest
My Mother

The one that smile
Even when tears fills up
She whisper all will be well often
Just to hide her pains
Behind her smile is grievance
Behind her joy is defeated sorrow
The strongest woman i ever knew
My Mother














Nothing could be compare
To those horrible moments we had
through thick and thin you were there
making us know she will and always be there
You gave us life and the
reason to keep living
My Mother

Though it gives me sorrow
to see you struggle too hard
she has a man in her
she is a man in a woman
she is strong and powerful
strict and annoying
Even when I Wanted everything new
I still want my mother again and again.
My Mother

RAISED FROM THE ROCK

Having gone through different short comings in my educational pursuit, I joined the train of TASUED on 8th October, 2016, admitted to study Secretarial & Business Administration. Sailing through in school was a hard one though I left with a sole aim "Succeeding".

Fast-forward to be in class where we have different students from different background. There are 3 categories of students, The ones born with Silver Spoon could be seen in expensive wears and materials in vogue. The ones Raised from the Mud, whose determination to rise proves abortive, no matter how hard they try. Though I categorized myself as the one Raised from the Rock, who with full determination could succeed in a blink. 

Paying school fee and other administrative fees was never achieved in mere. Mother was only the pillar I could hold on to when I almost fall. She try so hard to make things work out fine which eventually did. Her words of encouragement kept me alive and hopeful when I thought of deferring my admission.

Fast-forward to the Matriculation Day, where i was nominated among the bonafide student of the prestige Institution. She couldn't wait to see me in my gown and i couldn't wait to swear an Oath of dedication and commitment towards my educational pursuit all through my days in school. 

Alas! I was matriculated!