LETTER FROM AN ABORTED CHILD

 

 To-be but couldn't-be Mother! 

do you know how it feels

To thrust a hot iron

into the heart of one

that's how much pain I feel

For you didn't just end my life

but also shattered my dreams.

Is it my Fate to end this way

Or there is no other way I could live

Perhaps I mistakenly got into you

I wanted the best life for us

to fulfill my dreams and I craved 

for a mother who would be my backbone

instead , you detached me from your bone

You whispered that minute

You can't wait to have me removed 

because I bring shame to you 

that a life without me is best

Mother, I found warmth in your womb

I cling to you because I love you

Even though you detest the signs of me

When God gave me the news

that I'm going into the world

I asked Him to reduce your pains

to make me as beautiful as you

and to bring comfort to our lives

You brought me so much aches

though you'll always be my mother

Mama, should I try again

Not fulfilled dream I've got on my neck

My motive isn't to bring pain 

If you don't want me still 

bring me to the world

Place me in a haven and flee 

I will find my way and I'll forgive you

TRIALS OF A VIRGIN

O' ye Lady

You're the beauty behind feminine

You're the fragrance beneath 

the soothing aura of a flower 

planted to beautify and modified.

You're looked upon with the eyes

that reads "She is daft".

Play not your body about like draft

for you have within you the craft.

You've been thrust by those 

who you trusted for they want

not your love but to thrust 

through, in between your legs.

You've been stuck between letting out

and keeping it safe but remember

this is your "one time pride";

A minute pleasure shouldn't take away

your forever treasure... 

You're facing trials emotionally,

but there is someone out there

who wants more than uprooting you out of your precious root.

He'll water you with love

affection and dedication. 

Oh Yea! You'll crave for it too

but how do your face your man

when the question is asked... 

'Whom did you lost it to?'

- Simplicity

LIFE OR FATE?

When will life give me

Those true things I deserve?

Or is this fate?

To keep wishing and not having

Why should good people suffer

For being one?

Why should they find peace?

Even when they Put others in pieces

Oh you are endowed

They say to me

What of those pains?

Stop wishing you are me!

Those things that rocked Me

May sink you..

I chose strength of it all

The strength to be hurt than hurt others

That strength to love than any other

 

Most times I smile out Of tears

Cos most of my fears

Is me not succeeding among my peers

Despite how life gave me pears

I couldn't find the bread

To eat in peace

Is this life or fate?

I wanted to be normal

Life tortured me,  making me unease

I bottled up so many fears

Just to survive

Some times I got What I want

I seem happy not knowing

It's just a flash

They seem to disappear in no time

I feel so unlucky

Which tend to keep the question

Hanging in my throat

Is this life or fate?

Lost in Myself

My true self is gone
I feel the real me disappeared
I lost my world to a mere world
I lost who I am and
Who I really wanna be
How do i get this back?
even when my words can't be reached.

I found myself and
in another second i lost it all
Have i really found who i am?
Am I the counterfeit of my real self?
where do i turn to?
Where is me?
I gotta find me.



 My life confusing
Heart torn apart
world crumbling
where do I go?
how do i find me again? cos
I'm lost

Lost! Lost! Lost!
Now on my kneels
ready to change
ready to start again
I feel alone & lost
Please hold me!
I lost Me.
 

THE DEVIL I MET

You were once it!
A devil...
You chased after me so hard
Saying how much you care
I believe none of your words
I just don't want to

You start a new day with me
So deep in your heart and you care
You made advances i declined
I said i don't want you
Yet you stood by me
Through thick and thin, you were there.












You never feel rejected
Even when i made it known
You care so much
Even when i care less
You chase my sorrows
Even when I never care

You said you love me
I told you to go
To leave me alone and vanish
Yet you waited
You understand my pains
You are the devil I met
The devil that turned angel over the night.

UNSHARED FEELINGS

 My heart beats more faster
I feel you within
Your love holding on to my heart
I feel so in to you
I feel life cheated us
Making us feel what we can't share
My tears spells grievance
Do you also feel me within?
even when I aint too near...

All through the night
I painfully shed tears
I love you and you do
Why can't we share this?
Circumstance of life not on our sides?
Now i believe the word
Not all feeling is sharable
I don't wanna imagine not having you
Cos i keep imagining that I'm yours.

I WANT YOU

We have been through thick & thin
You care not less for me
I could see the traces of  tears
You shed all night long
Smiling from a sad heart
Hiding your pains behind it (smile)
I see it on that face that wears smile
Even when the tears didn't drop

Could you for a second be happy
Lets forget we aint alone
Lets steal the moment to share this
If for the last time come hold me
Come say it to me that
"You aint gonna be too far"
How do i face your sadness
Your smile was the best
Even when it comes from a sad heart.

We came into our lives
so innocent
You can't stop telling how it hurt
to see I can't be yours
Even love could hurt
You whisper it every time
"I will always love you"
I feel bad right now
I feel I hurt a true soul
I feel I should go far away
I feel your tears, I don't deserve
I feel you should be free from this love bondage.

HEARTBROKEN

Sitting at the corner thinking
about those moments
Kissing and touching your soft skin
Chuckling to your words as i hear them
It feels bad to know you ain't there anymore
I feel so horrible deep inside
My heart is torn apart
My heart feels deeply
Heartbroken.

I lost my words
when I read those words
My blood suddenly became hot
My sight blurred
I knew it that moment that
I'm not gonna be fine
I lost my true self cos
my heart feels deeply
Heartbroken.
















You tear my world apart
Your face wears no smile
The night you stop by
to say the final bye
Please don't go my treasure
You're all i seek
I feel so deeply
Heartbroken

I don't want love anymore
I tried hard to forget you
but you keep appearing in my dreams
I have met my pillow
I've got sleepless Night
I've waited even though you never came
I'm just so
Heartbroken.

How would i love again?
Who am i gonna trust?
Can there be moments i will be happily in love?
My heart feels pain
I can't let go of my pasts
I keep holding
There is still something i feel
Yet I feel deeply
Heartbroken.